It’s so good to be back!
I am sorry guys for being inactive these days. Sometimes I feel like my life is a crazy whirlwind and I’m flying through the centre of it.
I’m a perfectionist, though not a very perfect one. I have standards and high expectations for myself in most areas of my life, and while they instigate action and are a source of motivation, they somehow tell me that I’ll never be happy until I’ve reached those goals. I must be in a state of constant unrest until I have completed the ten thousand hours, achieved a certain grade, or am earning a certain amount. My soul can never relax or be at peace because my surroundings are not the impeccable picture of my highest desires. Continue reading
This is a loooonnnggg post so I would’nt urge you to read it through to the end.
I’ve taken numerous “personality tests” in the past 3 years. Yesterday, I took a personality test through 16 Personalities. It was free and took about 12 minutes to fill out. To be honest, I was skeptical! I struggled to select an answer on some of the questions because “what about those ‘what if’ situations”!! I was also unsure if they could REALLY tell me ALL about my personality through a simple test… Giiirrlll was I wrong!!
This personality test was SPOT ON, friends!!! It NAILED me – my weaknesses, my strengths, my relationships… it was so accurate that, as the website says, “it was a little bit creepy”!!
Not only was the test interesting to take, but I thoroughly enjoyed reading all the details about my personality type. I found it VERY informative and helpful! It hit the nail on the head with my weaknesses and also offered constructive advice for how to avoid those pitfalls. It was also reassuring to hear that areas I feel are my strengths, ARE my strengths! I was also able to read about what career paths people with my personality type tend to have, and understand a little bit more about WHY those career paths are beneficial for my personality type. Continue reading
For the last few months, I’ve tried to focus on myself and improving who I am in order to be a better wife and a better person for myself. I’m thankful that I have seen the progress that I’ve made, but there are also those days that I feel that among all those steps I have taken forward, I take twice as many back.
Even if it seems like you had a hard day – give yourself credit for adulting and celebrate the little things. Y’know what? Sometimes, life sucks. If there’s one thing that has really hit home for me last week, it’s that life is always going to throw challenges at you. Your power is in how you choose to respond to those challenges.
As women, society has told us that we need to “having it all.” We need to have that power-hungry drive in order to excel in our corporate careers. We should want kids and be able to spend enough time with our family so they grow up, and bla bla bla…. Continue reading
Lots of people says recently to never love your company. Don’t love it because it may not love you back and bla bla bla. That kind of sense that I fail to understand. I just can’t get the point why shouldn’t we love the company where we work? How can’t we love the company we work for?
I have so many reasons why we MUST love our company.
For starter, we spend at least 8 hours a day in that place, at least 5 days a week. How does it feel to spend that much amount of time in a place that you hate? It must feel like hell!
Second, we earn a living from the job provided by our company. Don’t you feel like dating or marrying a guy just for his money with no love included?
And the most important thing is that we learn and we grow during our tenures in our companies. I don’t know if it’s you, but to me, the companies I’ve worked has really made me who I am today. The ups and downs has made me wiser, the experiences has made me skillful, and the chances I’ve got has discovered the competence that I never thought I had in me. How can’t I love something that has given all of that good things into my life? Continue reading
Pic from @lovespellsmaster
Got bored at home and I ended up browsing the pictures my friends liked on Instagram. Then there I found a beautiful picture of a girl on the beach. I thought she was a girl, but apparently, she was a 50 something woman and a mother of three! I scrolled down her Instagram account and her pictures had really awed me! She always looks stylish, pretty, and that perfect body! It’s so perfect that I thought she might have had some jobs done, hehehe
Looking at her glamorous pictures made me realize that we wouldn’t need to be 20 something just to be awesome. We have the rest of our lives to be as awesome as we are! We can always dress up, wearing heels, put some make up and take a lot more stunning photographs as long as we’re still breathing! So why should we all be worried of growing old? Continue reading
Recently, during the painful hours of waiting in traffic, I witnessed a simple act of kindness that had such a profound impact on me. It brought me to tears. It was a bright morning. I was observing a municipality cleaner, who was doing his morning chores. Tears of sweat glistened on his face, nevertheless he continued working.
I had finished sympathizing with him and got distracted by the green light of the signal just when the guy in the car in front of me pulled his window down, called the cleaner and gave him some cash, probably as a token of appreciation. The middle-aged man nodded his head and pocketed the cash happily and thanked the guy in the car. I was so moved to see the gesture. Continue reading
Do I work hard enough? What is my future going to look like? How much of it is in my own hands? Am I making the right choices? My mind is cluttered with doubts, thoughts and more thoughts. We all get them, don’t we? I can work towards my goals all I want, sometimes my insecurities still get the best of me.
I decide to take a walk in the mangrove. I’m lucky to have those trees living in a suburban area of a bigger city – even if it’s just a small patch in a sea of concrete. Continue reading
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The other day I was sitting by myself in a local coffee shop near my office. I was drinking a latte and working on my laptop, something I really enjoy doing. For some reason I’m much more productive when I don’t work from office or home.
A group of three girls sat left from me. Talking and laughing about general high school stuff, I assumed. Until after a few minutes I realized they were laughing about me, and the fact that I was sitting here all by myself. According to them, I must have no friends and therefore be a horrible person.
In the past, this would have made me feel terrible about myself. I might have even stopped going to coffee shops by myself because I’d feel so self-conscious about my surroundings, but that’s not me. Not anymore at least.
Because what people say doesn’t matter. It doesn’t matter what some high school girl thinks of me. It doesn’t matter if people think it’s weird that I like to do things by myself.
What matters is that I got a lot of work done today. What matter is that I get to enjoy a delicious latte. What matters is that I feel good today. That I’m free to enjoy the sun when so many people can’t. What matters is that I feel comfortable in my own skin and my surroundings, without being affected by what others think.
I often get the question if I have children, I think to myself, “Do I look old enough to have children?? I admit, I held on to my childhood as long as I could. It’s been a struggle allowing myself to growing up and now I have entered in the phase called aging. I still see myself as a young lady, although you have to be over 50 to refer to me as such. *Crying emoji.
I am now understanding why make-up was invited, I am noticing my face change and often wonder if there is anything I can do to prevent my fate. How do I stop time? It took me years to find myself beautiful, and now its fading away right before my eyes. I should have been more thankful when I was a teenager, instead of being worried about pimples.
Blog vs. Instagram? Don’t get me wrong; I love Instagram as much as everyone else, and it’s definitely my #1 social media obsession, but I never considered that it could be on the same playing field as a blog. I like to think that Instagram compliments my blog but can never replace it.
My Instagram photos are a little more relaxed and brings readers further into my life. When I follow a blogger, I always look to follow their Instagram pages as well. It’s usually a good daily way to keep up with them.
Sometimes I have this weird & confusing feeling/questioning of, Is anyone even reading? Continue reading