Uuhhhmm… I didn’t write much last month. I couldn’t write. Both hands were busy just hanging on. First things first: This blog exists mostly for myself. It exists because I was looking for means that would coerce me to write more — and better. See, nowadays we use written communication as much as never before, but I’d argue that at the same time the quality of our writing is in deterioration. At least, for me it is.
So now I’m trying to get better at writing, hoping that on the one side being more proficient at it would bring back some of the pleasure in doing it, and on the other hand for the practical reason that being able to write well is a tremendously useful skill.
Ahh…I’ve got a lot going on. I can’t really write about it all but it’s really nothing a bunch of money, time, energy, wisdom and divine intervention can’t take care of. I’m overwhelmed. I’d like to get back to the days of just being whelmed. But, I suppose God didn’t build me for being light of heart and free of cares.
Between family, friends, work, and time for yourself do you ever feel like there’s just not enough time in a day? This is a constant uphill battle for some. This is the part of the day when I start thinking to myself, how can I be productive? Should I catch up on blog posts, work on my YouTube channel, or check-in with social media to see what’s trending?
This is also the part where my brain goes a million miles a second, and I become super motivated. I found that since I’m more productive during the wee hours of the night, I try to collect my ideas throughout the week then let my mind run wild come Friday and Saturday night.
During the week, my evenings consist of family time, and in the blink of an eye, its time for bed. Before you know it, my alarm is going off and back to work. It’s a shame that life gets so busy that the days of the week become one big blur, and at times you have to remind yourself to slow down just to remember what day it is.
Finding a good work-life balance is part of life. Some of us have conquered it, while others struggle with it. Whether it’s building a happy home, maintaining productivity at work, or creating time for a social life, finding a good balance can be tricky. Just remember that by letting the good Lord lead the way, anything is possible. Continue reading
If I say that my blog is a project I’ll probably slap myself silly because something you love deserves a far more better name than just a project. It is more of a long-lasting dream that has enabled me to put things on a small piece of the virtual world a bit more to my own degree, because here is where my creative spirit what it has been for years – and the author and columnist and actress and director and screenwriter and creative director and repertoire and costume designer and eternal child.
While I was in the process of transition to the world of “adult” and saving my desires at the bottom drawer, to wait for some braver and better days, I began to abandon my own dreams because when you reach a certain age they are considered as battling with windmills, the universe conspired and reminded me that in life only dreams make sense. Maybe he could have done it in a better and less painful way, but perhaps with such a stubbornness, it couldn’t go any other way.
Therefore, I give up on any questioning, seeking reasons, and playing a general after the battle. Continue reading
Struggling. It seems like every quote I come across lately has spoken to my soul and this one in particular is yelling, I have been struggling something fierce the last few months. In fact besides seeming to be at a cross roads, I was even questioning my writing.
You know I have hit rock bottom if I am questioning my writing!
Okay I am exaggerating slightly. Writing is fuel. It is MY fuel
It feeds my soul and declutters the mind. It doesn’t matter whether it is a blog post or a freelance piece. The minute I start to hear the click-clatter of my fingers on the key-board I feel my breath calm, and my heart rate sync. Sometimes I feel like I am in a trance. Hours will pass, but it doesn’t matter because I am at peace.
Yet, much like life lately, I have felt disconnected from my writing.
It’s been about a week since my last post. I’ve been wanting to write something, but every time I sit down at the computer I can’t think of anything. I keep writing a sentence or two and then deleting it. Even now, I’m finding it hard to figure out exactly where this post is going.
I’ve never been very good at handling writer’s block. I always sit there for a good while, before giving up and going off to do something else. That is actually one of the things I love about having this blog. It forces (in a way) me to write. I feel an obligation to write at least once a week (and yes I am aware that doesn’t always happen, but life can be busy). I believe that this expectation I’ve put on myself has helped me learn how to get past writer’s block. Continue reading
This is more a reminder for me than an update for anybody else. Life is pretty hectic at the moment and I need to remind myself that I also have this blog.
Let’s be honest some days you just aren’t feeling it we just don’t have it in us to kill it and really who says we have to? We were not created to be constantly seeking, doing, searching or forcing. There is no shame in wanting and needing a break. sometimes your soul absolutely deserves it.
There will always be a time when you feel like shit, when your energy will be depleted; when you will revel in feeling sorry for yourself ; when you literally may want to set your entire life on fire and watch it burn. Do you think having these moments or thoughts makes you a bad person? They sure as hell do not.
There really is nothing sexy or appealing about perfection. Own your energy, revel in your mess. Do the very best with whatever you are given. The world does not need you picture perfect and and prim and proper. The world needs your rawness, the uncut and unedited version. Continue reading
*Warning this post may contain moments of rambling. My thoughts decided to have a tennis match in my head today. LOL
Sometimes in life, you have to disobey the rules. Now I don’t mean that laws that govern us and dictate how not to be a horrible human being. Although history has shown some of these same very rules, and laws have discriminated and disadvantaged several individuals. If that is not proof enough that we should not blindly follow certain rules, I don’t know what is. I am specifically speaking about the ”rules ” as perceived by others.
Now I must admit I am quite stubborn and do not take orders very well . Especially ones I do not agree with. Just ask my last two managers; Managers just love opinionated workers don’t they? Continue reading
Bedrest di rumah pasca keluar dari rumah sakit praktis membuat saya tak punya banyak pilihan aktifitas. Tidur, makan, ngecek socmed, dan nonton tv. Gitu aja terus. Sungguh membosankan bagi saya yang biasa beraktifitas padat. Tapi dari sini saya jadi terinspirasi untuk membuat tulisan soal blogging tasks yang dapat dimaksimalkan dari smartphone.
Seingat saya, sudah sering saya menulis seluk beluk blogging tapi belum pernah menulis soal yang akan saya bahas ini. Tentunya dalam hal ini saya tidak akan membahas langkah-langkah untuk ngeblog lewat smartphone (karena pasti sudah banyak yang bahas juga…hehehe).
Sebelum menjurus pada poin-poin blogging tasks yang bisa dilakukan lewat smartphone, ada hal-hal yang perlu saya jabarkan di sini terkait proses kreatif saya sebelum menerbitkan tulisan untuk blog. Bagi saya pribadi ada 3 langkah mendasar yang saya lakukan dalam proses ngeblog: Continue reading
Hello everyone. How are you? Hope life treat you nice and steady. Almost one month since my last post and once in a while I really miss blogging. Life have been pretty busy for me since I become a housewife.
It seems like all I have been doing lately in the blogging world is making corrections! I miss blogging, I just want to write… This has not been easy. I did it. You can do it. But it wasn’t easy. I have enough experience to write a complete blog post on that, so we won’t go into detail today. I just want to post something …
But, the past few months I have been so empty, so dry, so in need of renewal…
So, I am really hoping to blog like I used to. When I read blogs like so many others, I realize that I want to be like that again. Just some thoughts…
So much to say, yet so little time I have. See you on my next post ( not sure when..hehe).
Happy long weekend. Happy holiday peeps 🙂
Signing off, Heni.
Just like most of us, I love writing with my heart and soul. But it seems to be getting harder for me to keep myself in the writing flow as I get older. I was that kid that wrote notebooks and notebooks full of stories about fictional characters. It was my favorite thing to do.
Nowadays, I lose my inspiration and writing flow more easily. It’s one of the reasons I decided to blog. If I don’t write I get stuck. I start asking myself stupid questions like ‘Is my writing good enough?’ and ‘Is this subject I want to write about interesting enough?’ While in real life, the fear of failing at ‘being a good writer’ shouldn’t matter, or at least should not hold me back. Continue reading