We’re onto the last week of the month of March already! How’s everyone holding up? I’m quite tired, to be honest. I don’t know what exactly to update on but I shall just mention whatever I can think of. The virus has taken over the world, and also all conversations. What did we all even talk about before? I can barely remember. I wonder what would be trending on Twitter if there was no coronavirus now.
Corona is groing crazy, and everything is shut down. This means a lot of us have to work from home. And let’s be honest, it’s a lot harder than you imagined. I mean who really wants to work while being at home. Many things have been happening in the world and I think we all could use a break from the news to just talk to each other and update on how we’re feeling/doing*.
Grab a hot cup of tea or coffee or any drink of your choice and settle down to hear some chatter from me.
*to keep things light, I will not be talking about the coronavirus situation itself, but all the talk will be about other things. We all need a break.
Yes I know what you’re thinking. “You didn’t find time to read but she found time to watch? Basically you chose to watch over read”.
If you thought that, you are kind of right. I did watch on multiple occasions instead of reading. BUT. In my defense, I mostly watched when I was having meals or during small breaks. Its easier to stop watching mid-way than stop reading so I chose to watch when I know I can’t read much.
I watched so many things recently!
CRASH LANDING ON YOU
The show I watched was Crashlanding On You which is a VERY popular Kdrama. Multiple friends loved it as well so I eventually watched it too. It was actually really good. I’m not sure of the accuracy of the situations portrayed, but it was SO GOOD story-wise. It’s an epic love story. But what warmed my heart the most were other platonic relationships portrayed throughout the drama.
Will probably write a review soon. Let’s hope I find the time for it.
THE TALE OF NOKDU
Watched this Kdrama during the week a couple weeks back. It’s 32 episodes long and I was HOOKED the whole time. It’s a brilliant drama, Complex characters, complex relationships and a very interesting story.
I watching this Kdrama a couple weeks back. Binged it during the weekend, actually. It was actually really nice. There were a ton of cool plotlines. It’s less about new romances and more about life and choices.
Are feelings a new taboo?
For a relatively long time, I’ve been thinking about what to write today. I had a bunch of topics in my head, a bunch of variations of one and the same, but you can’t write something ‘because it may not be extensive enough for a column, you can’t write something’ because you don’t want to hurt certain people, and you can’t do something because you don’t know how to express your feelings. You may know how, but you don’t know that they will understand you. Especially today.
Today we are afraid of feelings more than hell. Maybe not all of them. But those ugly ones for sure.
They put us in the molds of a society that does not always have the best perception. Maybe it’s up to Instagram where everyone lives perfect, censored, filtered lives. Maybe it’s uncertain and then they teach us that we can’t be any kind of person. It may be the toxic relationships that have taught us to close ourselves because it won’t get us anyway. ‘ But the fact is that it is rare today to talk about feelings, and that may be exactly what we need most.
We live in a world where so much is expected that sometimes its greatest success is not to pity. Some expect you to marry and have children by the age of 25 because that is normal. Others expect you to focus on education and careers because that is their normalcy. The third is expecting both of you and you to still live healthy, maintain a social life, exercise 5 times a week, have at least 428 hobbies, and keep it all normal. See you in the madhouse, my friend.
And then there are some who expect you to be your only self and listen to no one but your heart. That’s what I’m saying to you, and I’m behind it, but sometimes it’s really hard to stay your own in a world where everyone is fake. It takes tremendous strength to remain authentic in a world where everyone wants to mold us into our own mold, and we are not always strong. Far from it.
If someone tells you that they are never sad, that they are never insecure, or something, they are probably lying to you, and maybe lying to themselves. Maybe he/she does drugs too. He/she may have reached that highest level of nirvana. I’m joking. Maybe he/she’s just scared because realistically, sometimes I’m scared to say what I think and feel.
I’m scared because you never know who you’re going to run into or in what mood that person will be. One will tell you that you are hard and he/she is not interested in your problems, the other will tell you everything will be okay, the third will tell you that you are stupid, the fourth will not understand anything you said, the fifth will think you are a madgirl, the sixth will get mad at you for spoiling his/her mood with “your nonsense” and so on.
You can eventually go to a psychologist, but then everyone will think you’re crazy. So help me God.
But then again, if you still talk about your problems, your feelings, maybe that will help someone else to accept, to get confirmation that he/she is not crazy, that there are people who are struggling with the same problems. Maybe you will give someone hope to speak up and put out what is bothering him/her, and I think it is very important to throw out whatever is poisoning you.
It’s just that few people seem to realize that. Or he/she doesn’t want to understand because of the fear mentioned earlier. You will regret it because some boyfriend/girlfriend did not reply to the message or how miserable and sick they were while having fun or because your friend did not want to say hello to them the other day or because someone there confronted them about difficult things so now one has to gossip about it behind their back. And yes, okay, it’s an unpleasant experience, but why not talk about things that really cause annoyance in situations like this?
Why don’t people want to admit that such things are affecting them because of their own insecurity, desire for attention, need for intimacy or what ever is bothering them? Why do people think it is the end of the world to admit to yourself or others such things?
I have long wondered why some people blame all other people for everything wrong, but I think the answer lies in feelings. They can not come to terms with them. They can’t accept them. They don’t want to admit that they may have a problem, like everyone else on this planet, and that it’s nothing terrible. The only scary thing is that such people will not understand even people who have no problem with having problems, who have no problem being who they are. Then, too, such people begin to lose hope, because fighting windmills after a while does not make sense.
I do not know.
Maybe I’m right, and maybe I’m not. I am just thinking aloud.
I’ve been having small but really good conversations with people recently. Just talking about things and finding out various perspectives. It’s always interesting to see how different people view the same thing. And I really like conversations where we talk about something in depth, ask each other questions on things and explain perspectives. It helps me understand other people better. I also sometimes learn new things.
So yeah. That’s been the random highlight of this week. That’s about all I have to say. There have been a ton of small things happening but not interesting enough to share lol.
How was your week? What did you read or watch?
Tell me your updates! How are you holding up? How is life going for you? How is your mental health with the news and current state of the world?