December

Somehow it is December already, the last month of, not only 2019, but also this decade (the 2010s)! 😮Time really flies! And now, well, let’s say that my life is so completely different.

Learning lessons is a little like reaching maturity. You’re not suddenly more happy, wealthy, or powerful, but you understand the world around you better, and you’re at peace with yourself. Learning life’s lessons is not about making your life perfect, but about seeing life as it was meant to be. Elisabeth Kubler-Ross


When I look at my Facebook Time-Hop I want to cringe at how annoying I was. Yes, even at 21! Of course, I am sure give it a couple years I will think I am annoying NOW ( I probably am. I own it.)While twenty-one might be the golden age into adulthood, that last pivotal milestone of becoming an adult, I’ll be completely honest, I was a flipping disaster. Mentally, physically, emotionally, pretty much in every single way, I was completely disconnected from myself! Now, I felt much more in control and connected to myself.

I am much more self assured and know what I want out of life then I was ten years ago. I never in a million years thought I would come to a place where I actually accept my body, I have a career I not only enjoy (most days) but am finally FINALLY putting my stamp on it. I know what I want out of relationships, friendship and romantic. Of which the latter no longer scares me.

In my early twenties I thought I knew eveything. Let’s face it, I didn’t and I still don’t. AND guess what? That is A okay. I constantly felt like I had to proof that I did even when I didn’t, for fear of people looking down on me.

As I have gotten older, I realize that respect isn’t given being a constant know it all, but in admitting when I don’t know something. And I am fine with that. Being a know it all really isn’t all THAT fun.

While I have been joking that I am 21 for the sixth year in a row, I have also joked at how close I am to thirty. And okay, it IS true (oh no!) but thirty really doesn’t bother me or freak me out like it does some. I am ACTUALLY EXCITED for thirty. Yup I said it!

If you are a thirty year old woman, there is a certain power, that as woman in your twenties especially early twenties you do not have. Thirty is having your shit together, being established, and having a career. It is knowing you have had many MANY screw-ups and what the frack was I thinking moments and yet you came through all of them.

Anyway, despite the cold and weather, in general I like December. Work-wise, it has also been fine. As we are getting closer to the end of the year, certainly there have been tasks related to the end of the annual cycle. Though I have finished all of those by now, haha. Still there are some interesting topics I got to work on before the end of the year, which makes it exciting.

And that is all for now. Are anyone also excited of December as I am? 🙂

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