You Don’t Have to Like Me

Some days I feel alone, other-days I’d rather be alone. Some days I want to move out and make friends, other days I question these things, do I have to? does it matter?

I really do love my space, I have few friends. I have never been scared of being alone, it gets lonely sometimes but I don’t mind anymore, am I becoming a recluse  because I find myself not even caring for company, the only company I really want isn’t available and I just can’t bring myself to invite other people to my corner. Continue reading

Testing, testing… 1,2,3. Hello February?

This is more a reminder for me than an update for anybody else. Life is pretty hectic at the moment and I need to remind myself that I also have this blog.

Let’s be honest some days you just aren’t feeling it we just don’t have it in us to kill it and really who says we have to? We were not created to be constantly seeking, doing, searching or forcing. There is no shame in wanting and needing a break. sometimes your soul absolutely deserves it.

There will always be a time when you feel like shit, when your energy will be depleted; when you will revel in feeling sorry for yourself ;  when you literally may want to set your entire life on fire and watch it burn. Do you think having these moments or thoughts makes you a bad person? They sure as hell do not.

There really is nothing sexy or appealing about perfection. Own your energy, revel in your mess. Do the very best with whatever you are given. The world does not need you picture perfect and and prim and proper. The world needs your rawness, the uncut and unedited version. Continue reading

Q&A: Things You Should Know As An Adult, Exposing Life After College

Well, sort of.

Over the years (and by years, I mean the last five years I’ve been considered “an adult”), I’ve realized that very few of us actually know how to be adults. And it’s not to say that we are immature or anything. We just lack the knowledge when it comes to things we should already know how to do.

And who’s to blame for this? Your parents, your teachers, your friends? Maybe all of the above? Regardless, now that we’re adults, it’s your turn to take the torch. Investing in yourself is the foundation for becoming a wise, well-functioning adult.

Considering that I’m probably no more of an adult than you are, I’ve recruited some help. Some of the “adultiest” adults I know shared some ideas of what they thought were most important when it comes to being an adult. I’ve decided to share these things with you, in hopes that we can all grow up together. Continue reading

I Can Survive Anything

Okay. So here we are again. I don’t really know what this post will be about yet but I had the “urge” or need to write for over a week now. At first, I had another topic in mind, which eventually never happened because I either was too tired or afraid to write it down – you never know who will read your blog in the end and how they’ll see you afterwards. I concluded that I can’t force specific topics and issues, so whenever I feel to write or talk about something, I will do it. And if I just want to ramble, I will do it.

And today I will ramble and probably talking a lot of nonsense. This is just because I have so much going on. I can feel my mood swinging very often and just be mentally exhausted. I know for a fact that I am not physically tired, even though I rarely get my 8 hours sleep. Sometimes I’m just tired of having to function, to work, socialize, walk around or even send a simple message via WhatsApp. I don’t know which is worse; being in a room full of people, or being alone with my thoughts. Both are debilitating. I could stay in bed all day and still be tired. Tired and unsatisfied.

It’s been a while since I journaled. How have I been doing? Really well, thanks for asking. It’s been hella busy, but I’m handling things better than I thought I would.

I did have a meltdown in the beginning of the year when I was suddenly hit with all the shit I had to do. I felt myself sinking, and I thought I wouldn’t be able to get out.

But I did. I always do. Continue reading

Saham Untuk Pemula: Hal-Hal Yang Perlu Kamu Tahu!

Postingan pertama tahun 2019!

Hai hai…akhirnya hadir kembali di blog ini. Demi tercapainya resolusi 2019 untuk lebih banyak bikin #PostinganBerfaedah, mari awali tulisan kali ini dengan membahas yang rada berbobot dikit. Untuk kamu followers saya di Twitter dan Instagram mungkin tahu kalo beberapa waktu lalu saya sempat menulis cuitan di Twitter dan postingan Instagram Stories tentang saham. Rupanya dari sini dapet feedback yang gag saya duga. Banyak pertanyaan dan berbagai respon seputar postingan saya itu.

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Nah! Untuk menjawab semua itu, sesuai hasil voting, maka pembahasan seputar saham akan saya tulis di sini ya. Saya akan berusaha menjelaskan sesederhana mungkin agar mudah dimengerti. Sekali lagi, di sini posisi saya bukan sebagai ahli ekonomi atau pakar yang ahli banget ya, saya pun juga terus belajar dari waktu ke waktu. Apa yang saya bagi sesuai dengan pengalaman saya sendiri, jadi mungkin kamu bisa pakai ini sebagai tambahan referensi aja biar pikiranmu lebih terbuka. Tentunya kamu juga harus cari-cari referensi lain yang lebih relevan ya untuk menunjang informasi yang saya sampaikan.

Baiklah mari kita mulai, ehem! Continue reading

Take Control

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I can honestly say that November/December has been quite a bittersweet month for me. It has been ripe with financial mishaps, tons of work stress and various other happenings that would make a really juicy telenovela…Life.

Let’s just say that I have not been my most vibrant, positive self. I am often disappointed that I am not Wonder Woman and as a result, I can’t fix all the problems of the world. Is that a trait of all women or just my overly obsessive gemini moon tendencies?

I found myself in desperate need of a spiritual pick me up. It is a  work in progress. I decided to share this with you because I love spreading good vibes and you like me may be tired, stressed or just need a little boost.

Here are mine…

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Add a Little Zen

Hi there lovelies,

It has been a while since I have been in this space. These past few months have been a mishmash of all things crazy. Highs and lows and everything in between. I found myself feeling quite uninspired and literally wanting to take a nap until the year ends.

When I find myself feeling off-balance I always look for ways to get myself centered again because I am totally useless to those nearest and dearest to me when I am not functioning at my peak. Let’s face it none of us are. Life can just throw you some curve balls but you just have to take the hit and keep on moving.’ Continue reading

When I am Extremely Busy

It is a busy busy world out there, and at times it feels like there’s just not enough hours in the day to conquer it all. A full time job, pregnancy, healthy eating, a social life, extracurricular activities, and we’re supposed to rest? How are we supposed to keep up????

I think finding balance in our day to day lives takes effort. Balance is hard, but it is doable. These are ways that I’ve found work for me when I juggle one billion things happening at once & I hope they work for you too! Continue reading

LESSONS LEARNED FROM 2 YEARS OF MARRIAGE

Last month marked 2 years of being married to my wonderful husband and I am so thankful to be his wife. Our first 2 years of marriage was interesting and challenging. Marriage brought out our best strengths and weaknesses.

It doesn’t matter whether you dated 3 weeks or 7 years before getting married, your spouse will constantly surprise you with something new.

So here’s a little breakdown of what I’ve learned so far. Continue reading

Pregnancy Journey: I’m Pregnant + My First Trimester Story

Ok, so this blog comes a little late. I’m now 13 weeks and 2 days pregnant, meaning I’m well into my second trimester. That’s right guys!!! I’m pregnant! I can’t even tell you how relieved I am just share this news with all of you. I don’t know if you noticed over the past few months, but I kept talking on Instagram story.

So today, I thought I’d share an honest little recap of what my first trimester was like.

It took us almost 2 years to get pregnant and stay pregnant. Typing it out right now, that number doesn’t seem very long. I mean, most chapters of life—whether school-related, professional or personal—last longer than that. And I know that many couples battle to get pregnant for years and years and years, and a number like 2 might be laughable to them.

But I will say that those years were the longest of my life. We started out how most couples start out: “not not trying.” And when nothing happened, we started “trying trying.” You know: taking vitamins, altering lifestyles, etc. And when nothing came from that, we kind of just floated along, too scared to take the next step.

The darkest part of the journey, though, was my miscarriage last year. Continue reading